Let go of Vanity - Anita Holzberg

Let go of vanity I wear a purple heart I start the rainbow in my heart I am invinciable in forgiving myself loathing myself hating myself fooling myself too Let go of vanity wit goes also I was taught that image was everything I breathe that I let my curly hair go it will come back you know I ushered in the straight and everyone thought it to be great You ain't what you isn't and ain't what you ain't.

if for when... - Anita Holzberg

if for when I would be prepared I would not be if for when life's unexpected wing would sing to me if for when I hold my finger to my thumb I remember to eat a meal put sun block on my face turn the toaster off drink my green tea sing to thee...

In sickness and in health # 4 - Anita Holzberg

In sickness and in health
I keep you close
close at my table

You had a panic attack today
or lots of them

In sickness
I talk normal
not too much probing
you need a person to follow
you I say, a professional

In sickness
you heard me
In health
you will do what you want

I told you not to die on me
that's a promise I wanted you to say
You say, "I felt like I died, but I did not die"

Among the rosemary lamb chops
and Jewish egg noddles and avocado with tomato,
a pack was made

or so it seems.

hair dye - a decision : by Anita Holzberg

In the interim
I go to CVS to get some hair dye
I never bought hair dye
I always had someone purchase this for me
and dye my hair in a semi-permanent dye

They had no semi permanent dye
I would have liked lighter brown
but safely chose the dark brown

in the window of choices
one has to decide

Maybe leaving the hair the way it is for now
might be the best decision for the trip
nothing more new under the sun.

In sickness and in health - Anita Holzberg

in sickness and health
I will carry you
to the ends of the earth
where the sky moves
where children laugh
where the monkey sings

In sickness and health
I will be there for you
as you have been here for me

In sickness
I will run for a cool glass of water
with your meds
In health
I will take a walk with you

Although we are not deemed married
You get my allegiance
as you have stood by me
when in shadow
when the great rains came
you were there for me
never faulting
just there


In sickness
and in health
the sky cries
at your beauty
she really does.

We are what we have met - Anita Holzberg

In truth the waves of time will envelop me In truth the little bud will capture me In truth I walk these streets for over 25 years the bad times not returning In truth I hold Elisabeth's hand and we talk our hearts out as the afternoon sun runs over our shoulders We grow older in truth certain things remain like good friends good food laughter near the fireplace We grow older pain sets in the body walks slower the heart never slows down We are what we have met soft shades of morning children dancing in the street of Now shoes for the fisherman studded rainbows rising Be.

Belief - Anita Holzberg

I have had to believe it all the talent the diligence the dedication the going forth in pain I have had to buy into it the writer's life, the writer's dream, the day without walls I have earned all this down those mean streets pancakes at Denny's 4 AM, in a strange city family that held a deaf ear, slip sliding from job to job believing the wrong people Kinkos, my publisher, at dawn.

Machu Picchu - Anita Holzberg

stationed here the black tuxedo cat a fraidy cat a run away fer rel cat Mine for the asking a cat in the yard I say no litter box no poop in the house Feed me in the yard and I'll be happy Happily does she live with Picchu in the yard not down the street not in the flower bed Sleeping peacefully on a blue cotton towel in the yard.

Freash paint for sale - Anita Holzberg

Fresh paint for sale
a whole room of mocha paint
donuts on the wall
Fresh paint for sale
get your pail
Roll it on
sing a song
change is under your roller
look over your shoulder
Fresh paint
for sale
come grab your pail.

There is always a birthday of the mind - Anita Holzberg

There is always a Birthday of the mind Revision Incision rewrites Mathmaticians revise too There is always a Birth=day a rebirth a resoling a remembering I was 21 top down Ford Falcon Washington, D.C. I was 45 fire in kitchen closed the door ran to Half Moon Bay I was 63 hunt for ideas John Fox San Diego workshop I was 65 group for pain management stayed and true meditation and sharing I was/ all that I have met stomping streets swimming laps uncovering beds making chicken I am standing there with open arms catch me if you can. There is always a Birthday of the Mind.

passages - Anita Holzberg

passages
corridors
halls of moments lost

passages
comforters and
honey lemon tea
I could tell you long stories about this

passages
envelop the heart
beat in the noon-day

I lost a lot of sleep
walking
down these mean streets

New lights, thank you Demetrius - Anita Holzberg

Opening sky
 lights that change color
      lanterns light my garden
        blue, amber, red, green
            a sea of color

           My garden more reflective
              full
               of expanded beauty
                 in the light.

Washed and dry - Anita Holzberg

Washed wind dry my clothes as they hang on the clothesline of the mind Washed by wind shadow and rain Autumn comes quickly, quietly the light disappears my eyes out of focus Jim leaves after dinner he says he has to get home the lingering days of summer leave and their wake it appears we are sitting in darkness a cave of memories to walk into or not I take a cup of orange apricot black tea I toast the darkness the shadow of Jim at my table I clear and clean tonight sausage surprise we have our coffee and vanilla ice cream Wash and dry clean clothes replace the emotions that come out of the dryer still warm, foreboding I fold the towels They sit like soldiers all lined up Wash and dry It is a new day. Lovi Washed by dreams I begin to see what is The Borders of the Mind are tested A green moon shines on a stark morning Wash away my pain an old refrain.

Lasting PEACE - Anita Holzberg

Lasting P e a c e I taste you at a clean kitchen table flowers light the way Lasting M e m o r y the candle is glowing loving thoughts holding my 89 year old Auntie cheers me Lasting I n t e l l e c t the words fly like silver fish the tongues speak the brain moves swiftly over the broom-stick witch as she shows her colors for Halloween Lasting P E A C E I can not taste you a taste of beige grapefruit sweet a ripe melon lingers the sun aglow like Christmas in July the tray of Chai tea before us so great is the Ma-coon cat Reggie nearby the trees kissing the pavement You near by too Lasting P E A C E You have been my longing my forever yearning my quest among many landscapes now you sit with me as big as all outdoors and pray with me too.

Sweet Bee - Anita Holzberg

Sweet bee,
you are true to the passing wind
the rain, the shadow, the snow that comes down
You are true to what you feel
who you are
convictions and powerful thoughts
humor too

Sweet Bee,
come again
be apart of the swing of Nature
make your mark

You have come into your own,
You are at home

Sweet bee.

Memories - Anita Holzberg

Lost in the sea of memory
 I remember the black and white floor
     the kitchen with pink cabinets
           the electric coffee pot
      rows of roses and peonies

                     In that moment
I get lost to another time and space

              Its OK

             I need
          to fill up the space of now

              to put old photographs away
 their memory always on my wet lips
           for the asking

Lost in the day before the day
  my cat runs through the house
         Machu Picchu
                  a sacred cat
           who can fault that??

Anita S. Holzberg
Memories
Oct. 13, '10

The Heart Stills - Anita Holzberg

In the waking
doors are more quiet
   the heart does not rise up like liquid rain

       In the waking
              the meds are working
                     the miracle drug
                           which costs
           not as the cost of not having it

                      My new yard lights
                  are the drama
                        in my life now

              Not, the raging soul
                  My heart stills.

Anita S. Holzberg
October 12, '10

Once - Anita Holzberg

Once
newness
stopped my breath
like a shiny penny

Once I walked 27 blocks in heels to work
New York --my mean streets

Once I dreamed for Rachel
& Emily
Once they emerged beyond
my expectations and dreams

Once I did performance poetry
the stand up queen among male voices
I did this 3 times a week

Once I drove to the highest point in Santa Cruz
and needed help to get down

Once I listened to your heart
I heard the words
of love and devotion
the sound of the bell ringing

Once we get there
we can go further
Once we run a mile, we can run two.

Once we dream
we can live them
in the waking, too.

Lovi.

words like jewels - Anita Holzberg

words
like jewels dance into the day

words
the torch to the darkness
to the person who lost their mind
temporary
to the ions of stars that light our universe

words mean more
like sweet cream
laced in a cup of very fine coffee

I give up sometimes
then I see my words
they have feet
"sweet bee, they have feet"

neat.

In my blog with dear Ann
We capture ideas and photos
Dear readers over 1,000 of you
have viewed what we do.
Thanks,
Anita and Ann anitaandme.blogspot.com

A Love Poem § Anita Hoilzberg

For truth I see you a warm puppy crystal clear woofs walking into a new day In truth I take your glance all eyes on me Did I ever fathom this?? Three kisses one kiss for the morning, afternoon, evening You watch me walk You lift me up like Cocoa your affectionate dog by my side by our side.

a poem from Anita

soft thoughts like soft skin hold the mind in place harsh words jolt the soft thoughts they still stay in tack I harbor no resentments just reactions that have no vengance soft thoughts can be strong thoughts skinned knees wake to the world of conflict I teetor toter before my first daughter was born I tetor tater in the morning rain my car on the driveway soft thoughts carry me to the promise land a mecca the storm a ring around rainbows a pillow also soft to fall on. Anita S. Holzberg Word Diva

going forward -Anita Holzberg

worst scenario play superimposed on sky die a little bit in the waxing and waning grapple with the past going forward I give it all up Word diva, performer, CD maker I stand at my own attention my presence is as large as life now as large as life. Dare to live! Lovi

hALLOWEEN - Anita Holzberg

PUMPKINS POP ORANGE FLOODS THE LAND ALL IS A GLOW PUMPKINS POP CANDY IS PASSED OUT LIKE FRAGRANT WINE aND THE SPIRIT IS KIND POP POP POP aNITA'S FAVORITE HOLIDAY......................

G-d for sale - Anita Holzberg

starling remarks before the dawn before the lawn becomes green before the sea of memory takes over before the clover grows before the pots of flowers open their mouths before the intention of living stirs one's mind and spirit beyond belief in tune with the wind on the leaves on clotheslines on birds flirting with sky on telephone wires who hires G-d? G-d for sale no bargain here He makes us work for what we have no sentence too great beyond what we can fathom in our slightest movement beyond life as we know it. Anita S. Holzberg/poet/teacher/songwriter

Never Land - Anita Holzberg

Never land is far beyond the horizon Never land walks in mind and spirit soft shades of morning Never land is what we create ourselves A mind that is engaged in living open free like doors swinging can we ever be near Never land? P.S. Nirvana is a hope a set of intentions for finding Never land Maybe its easier than we imagine. Anita S. Holzberg/poet/teacher/composer

I ride the great white river - Anita Holzberg

I ride the great white river time is on my side I ride the great white river I abide by nothing memory goes into her box success walks on tenuous feet success is in the eye of the beholder I walk into the great white river the waves play as trumpets the melody stays in my head Dare to live! Anita S. Holzberg

Brain waves come like silk - Anita Holzberg

Hollow not
brain waves come
like silk
after being brain dead
to reality shows
grabbing every waking moment

brain waves
like sea waves
reverberate with the tides
the ebb and flow
follow sounds
in the universe
deep underwater dreams
emerge
in the dark yearnings of the heart
black thoughts
transpire
the world we treasure
is the deep longing
the upside down world
where the heart fights for survival
like fish we come
up for water
sometimes that is not enough
food, sustain ace, drops of water
mouth on the open sea
seagulls dart over
seemingly nothing
is happening
so quiet the deep
sea
the mind in struggle
makes little noise
on the shadow of the
earth's crust.

Anita S. Holzberg
Sometimes that is not enough,
food, sustenance, drops of water

soft rain does not fall - Anita Holzberg

soft shadows obscure not soft rain does not fall in a few weeks it will the shoe is on the other foot fine wine and cafe that it brewed to perfection glances parting hours stable remarks a place mat remembers what was said here the night falls company leaves P.S. In the rhythm of we pursue those we love. the table rocks with remembrance. Anita S. Holzberg October 2, 'a0

A bit of piano from Ann (Lady Gaga's 'Paparazzi')

After the Rainbow - Anita Holzberg

After the rainbow
there is peace
After the rainbow
there is peace
You came back to me
You my very best friend

There is singing all around
And the little bird without words
sings my song.
and that little bird without words
sings my song.

For Corinne/ because Space and Memory - Anita Holzberg

space and memory encounter the counter of the mind space gives memory grow-power I leave that space become something else like a fallen leaf a long steamed rose in the pool of the past. Anita's poem of Space and Memory

A poem by Anita Holzberg

10 zucchinis make havoc with the field
of their dreams
Lemons lurk on lemon trees disguised
by tall green leaves
Lettuce wilts on 115 degree plates
on a LA patio
Purple plums rise as fall comes
almost too soon here
Pastry chefs stand to reason
with chocolate pumpkin raisin cake
Wedding Chefs learn quickly to create
dreams skillfully and soon
Popcorn of every variety: kettle corn,
garlic, just popped hoot
Pumpkins pop orange their flavor
and colored candies float far
Avocados green as the season sprouts
good fats into sky
Food freaks and nutrition experts
allude to new attitudes now

Anita Holzberg

autumn - from Ann